“Some lessons are best learned thru pain. Sometimes our visions clear only after our eyes are washed with tears. Sometimes we have to be broken so we can be whole again. If God meant the day to be perfect, He would not have invented tomorrow. So don’t worry if today wasn’t perfect cause you still have tomorrow, and if there’s anything in your heart that feels right, go after it no matter what it takes.”
I am wondering at this very minute if you’re thinking of me. If like me you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to find you.
I’m thinking of how we will meet, will it be as romantic as the ones I’ve seen in the movies? Or is it possible that I’ve known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other. Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answer to all my questions.
Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known love. I don’t have the answers to that question either but I believe that more often than not you’ll never know what love is until we find the right person. And since I have not found you yet then maybe I don’t really know what love is.
You just don’t know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet. Perhaps I will be drawn to you by your smile or even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways.
I don’t really know for sure but I’m praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I had cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of a beautiful life ahead of me, the life I shall spend with you.
In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth the pain and sacrifice. After all the tears have become a part of my life and I believe you are slowly washing away all my flaws so that I will become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense but perfect for you.
I wonder if you’ve been hurt many times along the journey but my dearest one please don’t ever give up, because I am right here, patiently waiting for you. I assure you that when we finally find each other I would slowly heal those wounds by my love. At night I would look up my window and stare at the beautiful sky hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me.
I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heaven above that in time it will reach you. When I feel impatient I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well.
It is funny that when I finally fall asleep it is still you that I think of. For you are always in my dreams and it seems that for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you long enough to tell you how much I love you.
In my dreams you’d kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love and this all the more makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead of me. But soon enough you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I’m not sure that you’re the worth the wait.
And when the time comes everything will fall into its place just as I had imagined and just as I had thought and dreamed just as I had believed it will be. By then I will simply look back inspite of all that I have gone through, inspite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life and I’ll be very thankful because they all led me to you.
In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don’t ever think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has found the course and it’s up to us to follow the directions. Don’t worry, don’t be afraid about getting lost. God saw to it that all roads no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me.
Note: The poem above is NOT my composition, I just found this on the internet years ago while I was browsing through love quotations. Credits to the author of the poem.
It is lengthy but it is a good read. It gives me hope that I will meet that person someday. I just need to be patient. It is true, God has found the course and it is just up to us to follow the directions. No matter which direction we choose, it will still lead us to each other.
Keep on loving everyone ^_^
This is hard but I have to do this somehow, I’m letting you and your heart go.
Yes it’s painful, as i’m writing this I feel my heart breaking into pieces again. But this is what i needed so I can start over and hope that the next person will be the “right” one.
What I learned thru this experience…
Today is my most favorite day of the week
have a good one y’all
I am letting go of this last thread of hope of being with you.
Note to self: “I am becoming braver…”
saw this message in one of the forums I read and I find it really sweet and it gives me hope that there are still good guys out there, I just need to be more patient and to keep trying and eventually I will find him…
so here it is:
“Dear Future Wife,
I almost lost it… up to this moment I’m still in despair. I have waited for you all my life and yet you are still even unaware of my existence. I’ve been inlove several times, on which each girl I loved so much hoping she could finally be you. But everytime I only found myself broken simply because they’re not you.
You are the one that I’ll be with
-as I cook breakfast before we greet each sunrise
-as we laugh while we reminisce happy memories together
-as we watch sea of clouds at different places
-when I’m down as you make faces to make me smile
-as we end each day watching sunset
-as we share our wildest dreams, fantasies and adventures
-during cold nights ‘coz I’ll hug you tight to keep you warm
-as we gaze the stars in our rooftop
-as we grow old together on which each wrinkles signifies how often we smile
and many more for us to do…
If you’re out there reading this, please, find me as I’ve been searching for you.
You’ll know it’s me when the first thing I ask you is:
“Where have you been all my life?!”
This is one heartache of the not so many I might experience in the future, it will soon pass and I will be stronger and wiser. One heartache is not enough to stop me from loving.
I shouldn’t be feeling this for I know that you were never mine to begin with. But I’m just like any other girl hopelessly expecting that the person she loves will love her in return.
I will always hold on to the promise that God has prepared that special someone for me, it may not be now but I know someday i’ll meet him in God’s perfect time.
Writing has always calmed me when I feel uneasy. It is like the ray of sunshine that stops the storm building up inside. Sometimes it’s just hard to explain but all I know is that it has always made me feel better.
As I’m writing this I feel that 2% of this sadness, emptiness and confusion slowly leaving my system, at least I’m finding a reason to smile
Just when I thought that love is just a walk in the park, this happened and everything crashed, now I’m asking myself what went wrong?
I guess it’s time to move on and let go to give myself a chance to be happy with someone else…
My Untitled Poem #1
Shinhwa Broadcast episode 8, subbed
credits to jeannious1128